Again - I'm starting over

How many times can you really - start over - before it becomes just a cliche that doesn't mean anything. Hmm...
Well, I say you can start over as many times as you 'start over'. Now the trick to that is to actually - start over. Not just pick up in a new stop but actually pull out your life's play book, rip out the current page that you're on, crumple it up and toss it. NOW - whew - I'm starting over... one mo gin.
... I mean, seriously folks, I don't even have a bed anymore. Okay, so I did keep my blendtec but come on now... it's a blendtec - I'm NOT tossing that... oh or my Kitchenaide stand mixer... no ... no way.
BUT, yeah...
I'm known by my family as a gypsy and so therefore it's expected that I physically MOVE around often - but over the years I have tired of this activity - mostly because my kids grew up and I got divorced and well - I couldn't afford movers to keep moving all my stuff! So I looked around my dinky Oregon apartment and said, I'm ready to go back home. I need to be by my mother and well ... yeah I need to go home. So I did. I packed up in February 2012 and moved back to ... no.. no Beverly... no even Berkeley but to Hayward California.
As a kid I always loved that area and so moving there was, at first, a wonderful little surprise of goodness. Then... long story short... I was abruptly reminded as to why I moved away from California back in 2002... OH yeah! I'm allergic to California! Ugh! Grr! Yeah oh man (slapping my forehead as if I forget my V-8) That's why I left... grrrr...
... SO I found this out in 2015 when I was hit with another deadly SUN incident and it's taken me all this time to recover enough to move forward. I just didn't spring back as well as I did back in 2002.. go figure.
So with what's left of my health and piece of mine and PEACE of mine, I'm heading back up to the Pacific North West... where apparently the only thing I'm allergic to are the Cotton Wood trees of which there aren't many.
... I had to change my job, well get a new one up there, an apartment - which I had thought I was going to retire - and most of all -- get rid of all my stuff because I had no one really to help me move. I mean yes I found a couple of loving folks to help me pack a truck but those days of moving in 2 hours is over... this is like... a BIGGO deal!
...amidst it all, I can't have stress in my life. How is THAT supposed to happen. Yeah, my stuff had to go! I had to cut that 26 foot truck down to a 15 footer. I had to close my eyes and open up my storage and say... come and get it!
I feel lighter now, happier now and frankly until I reach for something and it's not there, I'm SURE I won't miss most of that stuff. And if I miss something I will just have to get it again... start over -brand spankin' new.
... yeah it's kind of exciting I have to admit and the little gypsy in there is flapping her arms through the butterfly trees inside me.
So maybe I'll blog more! Maybe I won't. Maybe I'll become a crafting queen! HA... I don't know, but I do know that starting over means that this go round I need to do something I haven't done before and that's really lighting a creative fire in me.
... I'll let know you who I become.
MORE LATER....

Why I'm Vegan Again... Psoriasis Crisis

There is no magic fix for severe psoriasis. Mild or Severe it comes when it wants, stays as long as it wants and does as much damage as it's allowed. 
I've had psoriasis all my life. I was the kids with the alligator skin on my legs- you know... the ashy kid. etc... well this time around my auto- immune disease called psoriasis took it's toll on me from head to toe. I have even developed arthritis from it in my shoulders and left hip and knee. it gets in my eyes, I gets in my bits, it gets and goes where ever it wants to. Sometimes just a day or two sometimes a week or two and in the case of my legs, thighs, and arms and neck and head... MONTHS.
The flair ups have been nearly unbearable. BUT yet, yes I go to work and I make it through. I scratch and I cry and I bleed and i crack and I slather oils and now.. I soak, and fast and I eat green.
The last two days have been amazing. The salt soak - I've never done it before as I've never had this much psoriasis covering this much of my body before - has been amazing. I took the whole weekend to just soak and slather and eat green.
Today i started with Desitin cream as recommended by several in the "PS" forum where I'm a member. So far it's clinging to the porous plagues and it seems to be breaking them down and smoothing out the skin... I'm sure in the 7 days as is recommended it will do more than just ruin more clothes.
Oh let's not talk about the clothes that are ruined with oil and other 'cures'.
It did come to me after doing some research that my liver was being bogged down with toxins because of having my gallbladder removed the other year and NOT taking time to totally heal. I was moving back here - leaving Portland - and so when I did, to make it easy, I left also my VEGAN life and went vegetarian...
It just didn't dawn on me that SUN, STRESS...aaaaaand gaining 30 pounds in the last 4 years from an 'anything but meat' diet (which is NOT vegetarian either by the way) could be at the root of this HUGE flair up.\
... the 30 pounds being at the TOP of the list NOW... since the SUN isn't as big of an issue anymore (the BURNS are still there from this past summer... but still the weather has been nice and low in UV most days the last few weeks) so what explains the flair ups...
THE LIVER.... MY LIVER
SO I spent the weekend detoxing and will from this day forward, continue to work at keeping my liver at high function. Shaklee has a product that I will get but for now I just picked up some milk thistle and turmeric/curcumin to help.
I'll update next weekend to let you know how I feel. I'm hoping I feel GREAT and can see positive movements toward the end of this crisis.
Then... on to Washington for total remission.